Have you ever made new years resolutions? I’m gonna lose 40 pounds, exercise every day, run a marathon, clean my basement/garage/ house, be nice to my mother in law?
Be more spiritual? How long did they last?
So on the day before Hannukah started, I was talking with some friends about what the holiday means…..the oil lasting for eight days…… the traditions of the faith….. The word though, means dedication or inauguration. It commemorates a military and spiritual victory. A feast of renewal, cleansing, rededication, I was told. And a way of increasing in matters of goodness.
Well now I don’t know if all that is right, but when we started talking about the changes we’d like in our lives this year, and the things we want to increase and decrease, the idea of resolutions fell apart and the ideas of goals and commitments and behaviors became paramount. So if I want to clean the clutter from my house, won’t it be more realistic to decide to spend 15 minutes a day, cleaning something, rather than beating myself up all year about the messy house?
So we decided that this year we were going to do things differently; we were going to take the eight days of Hannukah and really think about what we wanted. And we talked about goals, not resolutions, and behaviors, not ideals. And we talked about renewal, cleansing, and dedication.
And they invited me to come back on January 2 and talk about what I had decided. Between now and then, I decided to write for eight days what I really wanted out of the New Year, then total up what came up eight times, or seven, or six. Stream of consciousness writing …. fast….no detail…..no judging……no rereading…..and use that to make decisions about this precious New Year.
You see, three people I have loved, relied on, known a long time, and were precious to me, died in 2016. Life is short and we don’t always get the time we wanted. I turned 70 this year and had a surgery that grew into three surgeries and put three plates and between 14 and 16 screws in my ankle. I don’t feel like a bionic woman. I need to use the time I have really well.
But I was shocked by the answers that came out on those 4×6 cards. Joy. I want to enjoy my life and take time to be happy. Clutter. I want to clean up all the stuff that just seems to grow in the corners of my life. Friends. I need more time with people I enjoy. Prayer and meditation….I have been slacking off in this area.
Today I realized that the one and only meditation book I asked for and was given as a holiday gift, focuses on joy. Maybe the Universe is telling me its opinion too.
But the other, the biggest strongest one, that came up eight times, is briefly expressed in the title of a book written by Serena Dyer, Wayne’s daughter. “Don’t Die with Your Music Still In You”. I have a deep strong passion about recovery and healing people from their food addictions, and teaching people how to live life free of the obsession with food. If I die and have not done that, I have lost. Big time. So, as I return to my practice later this month, expect to see a difference. And, while I probably won’t be singing, you can expect to hear a lot more strong stuff from Theresa.
I hope you will like it. I wrote this to share with those friends. Please please please be welcome to tell me what you think and what you need. I want so badly to hear from you. And please, I beg you; holler before you pick up the self destructive food!
There’s more to come!